Sittin’ here tonight
By the fire light
It reminds me I already have
More than I should
Sometimes I’m hard on me
When dreams don’t come easyI wanna look back and say
I did all that I could
Four wheels to get there
Enough love to share
And a sweet, sweet, sweet song
At the end of the day
Lord I pray
I have a life that’s good
I could have given a lot of this up or at the very least let a lot of this fade into obscure shadows in the backdrop of my days had I set off on this other path with an old flame. And for a long time, I’d felt as though I missed out, that I was the loser somehow. But in that moment, waiting to turn at an intersection near my local Trader Joe’s, I realized that I won. I’ve won a lot. And as much as I want to quantify my accomplishments by comparing them to others (I’ve run a marathon, but I’ve only run a sub-5 hour and not a sub-4 hour; I’ve published a book, but it’s not a bestseller and it’s not the book that everyone is talking about), I know that what I’ve done is enough. It’s enough for me.
And at the end of the day–this day, in particular–I realize that I do have a a life that’s good.
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(Thank you to the TV show Nashville for filling my life with yet another song that’s helped me along the way.)